Monday will be the first anniversary of the death of my daughter. She was 37, and a 2011 Baylor Graduate.

Today, the 15th, is the anniversary of the last time I saw her conscious. I went to her house straight from work. When I walked into the bedroom, she was immediately agitated and held out her hand to me. She could no longer speak, but it was obvious she wanted me to help her up. My wife had moved into her house in June and become her primary caregiver until the end, and she was afraid Amanda was trying to con me into letting her stand, which she could not do. She vehemently shook her head no and threw her hand out to me again. I pulled her up, and she sat on the edge of the bed. We hugged. She stroked my arm, and I stroked her back. I told her I loved her.
In that five-minute hug, there was love and forgiveness for all my failings, and there was goodbye.
I never saw her conscious again; after that moment, she was at peace
I miss her so much.

What a beautiful, if bittersweet, memory. Thank you for sharing. I'll be thinking of this for some time.

And I'm sorry for your loss.

I am so sorry for your loss. I I cannot imagine losing my girl. Thank you for sharing.

same as Harrison, cant imagine your loss. God Bless

I have a daughter

Thinking about you and praying for you

Prayers for you and your wife.

I can't imagine the pain and don't want too.

Thank you for sharing something that will make all of us be thankful for what we have in our families.

May God grant you and your wife the peace that can only come through His son Jesus Christ.

Prayers for you and your family. I can't imagine the pain and grief you're carrying, and I'm truly sorry for what you all have gone through and continue to face.

Peace and blessings to you, and her.

Sorry for your loss. Empty words, but time does really heal wounds. Best wishes.

cowboycwr said:

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I am just now seeing this thread as I do not often check the Chit Chat board but something seemed to tell me to go check it today.

I am so sorry for your loss. As a parent I know losing a child is our biggest fear (whether they are young like mine or grown like yours). 37 is still very young and it sounds like it was a slow process/illness. I cannot even begin to say I understand your pain so I won't try. I will just say thank you for sharing, you are in my prayers and God bless you.

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She was a strong, smart, powerful woman, and a way better person than her dad. We had the same freaking cancer but mine was stage 1 but hers was stage 4. It just makes no sense. I've lived a good life. I've raised my kids... The two ginger babies needed her more than they need me. It's just so unfair

Words can't ease your pain but I salute you for posting this shared love. You had a special relationship with your daughter which makes it even harder to imagine. So young. So soon.